hy's blog

I am retiring this blog. Killing it in fact. I am getting through divorce hell at the moment and have no time to blog.

Feel free to find me on Facebook where my current Yahoo email address is located. The existing one no longer works since it was hacked into.

I feel like shit. I feel like a wreck. I feel depresssed. I feel relieved. I feel angry. I feel sad. I am on an emotional roller coaster. I want to get off.

is a curious concept. It can be hurtful, wonderful, overpowering, peaceful, confusing. Why is this?

The afternoon of Halloween started off reasonably well. I picked up Marlis from school at lunch and we ate lunch at Yoshi and then took her to piano lesson.
We get home and she changes into her costume (fairy-princess something) and she is running around the driveway with her wand. Next thing I knew, she looked upset. She dropped her wand into the sewer drain. Tears are welling up and we scramble to find her other wand. Well, in her haste, she tripped over R's beer that was laying on the ground. He gets upset and then the crying and wailing start. Meanwhile, during all this, I am on a telecon and my understanding classmates, hearing the wailing, tell me that I should hang up.

We find another wand. The rest of the night of trick-treating goes well.

It's amazing how it seems like the end of the world to lose your wand (and spilled beer).

are my new addiction at the Y.

We went to Rhinebeck on Sunday. The weather was gorgeous. I was reserved in my yarn purchases. Only 2 skeins of Brooks Farm Tierra blend (lambswool and alpaca blend). And a felted hat for me and a felt hat for Marlis. (from www.robinshoods.com) Marlis had a great time on the rides. Richard drank beer. We ate dinner at Terrapin.

I did take some photos but haven't been bothered to download them yet.

In case you were wondering about the non-responsive to emails person, yes, I did get a reply. Lesson to be learned: don't send out more emails until the recipient has replied. Less frustration.

I have been feeling rather gloomy these days. Probably the weather, school, work, life. (not necessary in that order). I don't even feel like buying any yarn these days either!

On the knitting front, I have several FO that need to be seamed and tidied up. I also need to frog the work I did on the Tree Jacket since it is HUGE on me. I just don't get pattern measurements.

I am just not getting much of anything these days. I hope the gloom clouds will pass eventually because I am not liking who I am at the moment.

Spent a pleasant weekend. Should have been studying but instead went to the Arts/Crafts Fair at Brookdale Park on Sat and went to CultureFest on Sunday in NYC at Battery Park. Met up with some friends in NYC and ate a Souen, a macrobiotic restaurant.

I have been so full of mixed emotions since my return to NJ from Basel. On one hand, I yearn to still live there, on the other hand, I would really miss the vibe and energy of NYC.

Well, I still have more or less 1 more year of school left and then decide whether to return to Basel or go to Shanghai on another international assignment. Maybe I should just toss a coin and see????

Oh yeah, something I have been wondering, is it a female trait to expect replies to emails from the recipient or is it just me who is demanding? Is it common courtesy and politeness to respond to emails? If the email recipient don't ever reply, should I continue writing? Why bother, right? It's like writing and throwing my thoughts into a black hole. Or is the recipient hoping that I would take the hint and stop communicating all together?

Yup, been so full of emotions lately that I don't even know what to think.

possible to love someone without really knowing them? Is it possible for life to be just cruel enough to keep apart people based on timing and circumstances?

Is the gamble worth it, knowing what you lose and not knowing what you gain?

Is it worth it??